REMINISCENCE

My lips touch the edge of the cup,
To sip the hot coffee.
Basking in the twilight I try to smile,
Buy still don’t feel happy.

The cool breeze tickles my ears
While playing with the hair.
When I turn to embrace it
I realize that I don’t care!

The birds are all home,
I can hear their chirps from the woods.
I walk to my room and open my diary,
To get rid of this mundane mood.

As the nib touches the page
Effortless lines form letters
And they mould words that speak my mind
As if the pen knows me better.

Like when I try to turn off the radio
That plays a song I had once dedicated to you
Why does my hand recede from it,
And I find myself humming the tune?

Like when I try to skip your name
While going through my phone book
Why do I stop there every time,
And wish the phone to ring by a fluke

Like when I try to pull away from you
Push you away from my mind
Why does everything remind me of you?
What is it that doth bind?

Like when I try to walk out on you
Moil to notice someone new
What makes me want to be so loyal?
When I know it hardly matters to you!

Like when I try to convince my heart
That we can’t ever conjoin
Like when I decide to stop writing about you
I end up inditing this poem.

DISCLAIMER

All characters and events in the previous blog is purely fictitious. Any resemblence to any private individuals, living or dead, is entirely coincidental. And it is to be noted that nowhere has it been mentioned that it speaks about me.

Why does it hurt?

He was the high school sweetheart...she was just a lil girl. He was the heart throb of all...but she kind of LOVED him childishly! When she grew up, her childhood love became somebody else's ...who was none other than her own best friend! She was happy for her friend... and for him too. And why shoudn't she be? Her love was happy and so was her best friend! Yet it pained her! Why?...Why does it hurt?

He was her pen pal. They were tight friends. She was happy to have a friend like him in her life. But Alas! She fell in love with him! A very deep love... too deep to even last for two full years! All this, only to realise that they were not meant to be together...not even as friends! She is a strong girl now! And she is out of it. Yet it pained her! Why?...Why does it hurt?

She saw him that day for the first time. He had a pleasant personality. He was polite and friendly. Oops...does she have a crush on him? Oh my God!...yes she does! But she decided to take it easy and go for only friendship...atleast for the nonce, till she infers whether its just an infatuation or true love! But no... fortune was too cruel on her! Before she could think of anything, things went public! Her personal feelings were being mocked at! She was dumbfounded! Is it really that bad to like someone? But to her, her self esteem was more precious than anything in her life. She decided to forget him. She was right to do so! ...n she knew it! Yet it pained her! Why?...Why does it hurt?

He is her new friend ...a very good one indeed! And this time she took special care not to fall for him! 'Cause she really cant afford another heartbreak! He is a nice guy; very sweet, polite, friendly, smart, open-minded, out-spoken--just like her-- and very decent. They liked each other's company. They shared many things with each other: their experiences, their secrets, their joys, their sorrows, their laughters, their tears. They had become the best of pals! One day she came to know he was in love with a girl! Next day he told her that his lady love cant be his and as a solace she lend him her shoulders. She was sad too ...she hated to see him in despair. She was being a good friend and a true support to him! But even in all this, somewhere in the corner of her heart she was feeling jealous! She couldn't bear to hear that he loved somebody else...but why? He was only her good friend, thats it! She didn't love him...or did she? ...No..no..no...she cant! She just cant! She just cant love him! ...'cause she has already had too much of heartbreaks! Yet it pained her! Why?...Why doest it hurt?

Oh my God! Its her pen pal who has called her after about 1 whole year! Its his wedding! He wants her to be present with him in his special day. She was his good friend after all! Huh! She was very happy for him, though. Atlast he will get settled...and will have his own happy, complete life! And as for her feelings for him, that had died almost a year ago! Yet it pained her! Why?...Why does it hurt?

Mystery Of Passion

Passion is love, passion is hatred,

Passion can even be anger instead.

Passion can give you the happiest moments,

Passion can even make you lament.

Passion can hail you the King of Kings,

Give you pleasure and make you sing.

Passion can make you the ruthful slave,

And take you to the devil's cave.

So I say, my friends beware,

Passion can take you anywhere.

Try n guide your passions well,

Then in heaven you will dwell.

Waiting for you

You used to visit me everyday,

You used to take a lot of care,

And I would stand next to your door…

Waiting to give a loving stare.

.......

Never did you forget me,

Nor you let me feel I’m alone,

Your very presence would give me bliss…

Make me feel I’m your own!

.......

You were so close to me,

That I made you my best friend,

Then how could you leave me behind…

And give our amity such an END?

.......

Oh friend,please do come back,

I miss you so much over here,

You might forget me and not want me…

But I still love you, my dear!

.......

So with every little chirp of birds,

And every little drop of dew,

I’ll be standing next to your door…

Just, Waiting For You!