Why does it hurt?

He was the high school sweetheart...she was just a lil girl. He was the heart throb of all...but she kind of LOVED him childishly! When she grew up, her childhood love became somebody else's ...who was none other than her own best friend! She was happy for her friend... and for him too. And why shoudn't she be? Her love was happy and so was her best friend! Yet it pained her! Why?...Why does it hurt?

He was her pen pal. They were tight friends. She was happy to have a friend like him in her life. But Alas! She fell in love with him! A very deep love... too deep to even last for two full years! All this, only to realise that they were not meant to be together...not even as friends! She is a strong girl now! And she is out of it. Yet it pained her! Why?...Why does it hurt?

She saw him that day for the first time. He had a pleasant personality. He was polite and friendly. Oops...does she have a crush on him? Oh my God!...yes she does! But she decided to take it easy and go for only friendship...atleast for the nonce, till she infers whether its just an infatuation or true love! But no... fortune was too cruel on her! Before she could think of anything, things went public! Her personal feelings were being mocked at! She was dumbfounded! Is it really that bad to like someone? But to her, her self esteem was more precious than anything in her life. She decided to forget him. She was right to do so! ...n she knew it! Yet it pained her! Why?...Why does it hurt?

He is her new friend ...a very good one indeed! And this time she took special care not to fall for him! 'Cause she really cant afford another heartbreak! He is a nice guy; very sweet, polite, friendly, smart, open-minded, out-spoken--just like her-- and very decent. They liked each other's company. They shared many things with each other: their experiences, their secrets, their joys, their sorrows, their laughters, their tears. They had become the best of pals! One day she came to know he was in love with a girl! Next day he told her that his lady love cant be his and as a solace she lend him her shoulders. She was sad too ...she hated to see him in despair. She was being a good friend and a true support to him! But even in all this, somewhere in the corner of her heart she was feeling jealous! She couldn't bear to hear that he loved somebody else...but why? He was only her good friend, thats it! She didn't love him...or did she? ...No..no..no...she cant! She just cant! She just cant love him! ...'cause she has already had too much of heartbreaks! Yet it pained her! Why?...Why doest it hurt?

Oh my God! Its her pen pal who has called her after about 1 whole year! Its his wedding! He wants her to be present with him in his special day. She was his good friend after all! Huh! She was very happy for him, though. Atlast he will get settled...and will have his own happy, complete life! And as for her feelings for him, that had died almost a year ago! Yet it pained her! Why?...Why does it hurt?